Lolita Jane

( 2002-04-18 )( 1:45 p.m. )

Talk abt some messed up stuff. I just got done talking to a girl online our age early twenties dying of cancer. Her family left her and the only way for her to communicate is on the computer. I talked to her for at least an hour before her meds kicked in it was sad.

It felt like I've known her before, you know in a past life. It was really sad to hear the way she was talking abt death. It made me feel like shit especially the way I act sometimes, you know. Here's this girl on her death bed telling me to cheer up. Now I feel like total shit.

I'm sorry and I know I've gotta change.

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